Sunday, January 24, 2010

Arizona Robbins

For those of you who have seen my facebook updates and if you have listened to me talk about Grey's Anatomy you know that I will swear up and down that Shonda Rhimes stole my personality and gave it to the character of Arizona Robbins.

Arizona is perky and fun and blonde. She wears heely's and she has little animals on her labcoat. She loves kids. She cries when she is challenging an authority figure. Arizona's passionate and tough. In pediatrics the kids' IV bags are filled with fairy dust, they play pretend and they are tiny humans. They are not just general surgery in miniature, they have their own specialty that takes extra years of training.

I've known who I am for basically my entire life. I've always known that I'm gay. I genuinely tried to be straight in highschool but with the boyfriend count at 0 it didn't go so well. I came out to my mom when she saw the poster of Kim Kardashian on my wall. Even if I wouldn't have come out I'm pretty sure it wouldn't have surprised her if I brought a girl home. My dad knew I was gay before I came out. He told people at my 19th birthday that he knew I was a lesbian he was just waiting for me to come out of the closet. I didn't come out in high school because I was in sports and I didn't want to deal with awkward locker room situations. Believe me a high school gym locker room is the last place I want to be checking out chicks.

To show you the similarities between Arizona and I rather than just tell you I have included a video to back up my claim that Arizona Robbins was created from my personality.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Do I Need a Button?

Do I need a button a that says 'Hi I'm Gay' ?

Yet again, I have to let a guy down because I'm gay.

A really annoying guy sat next to me in Chemistry today. He flirted with me the whole time. I just wanted to say "Dude don't waste your breath or time flirting with me because it's not going to get you anywhere."

At first it seemed that he was just being friendly and wanted someone to talk to then it just got plain annoying.

He actually wrote in his notebook where I could see:
"Don't sit next to her lol >" yes he even drew an arrow pointing to me. I tried not to laugh at his failed comedy.

I'm pretty sure the "lol" at the end means he wasn't serious so basically he is bad at flirting and he doesn't have gaydar. If he really felt that way he would have kept it to himself or maybe, I can only hope, that he was serious.

I should get myself a button that says "Hi I'm Gay" just to cut out all confusion.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Do Only Gay People Have Gaydar?

I ask you this question fellow readers because I thought I make it very obvious that I'm gay by the way I dress, carry myself, adorn my backpack with rainbows, etc. Today was the second time that I have had a guy from school tell me that he likes me only to be disaapointed with the fact that I am gay.

In May a kid from my Composition class asked me out after the semester had ended because he thought I was cute. At the time I wasn't comfortable with telling someone who I barely knew that I'm gay. I also wasn't technically out so I probably wasn't even a blip on anyone's gaydar. I told him that I was going through some personal stuff and it would be better if I remained single, which was completely true.

Today a similar situation happened in the student lounge. I had a class last semester with this guy whom I will call T. I saw him today in the student lounge and gave him a nod acknowledging that I saw him. The next thing I know he is sitting at my table with me. I wasn't alone the whole time, a couple of people that I know through my friend B were sitting there and I joined them before they had to leave. T and I started chatting about classes and our teacher from last semester. It was mainly just small talk, then he asked me for my phone number. I know this guy and I think he's pretty cool so I didn't think anything of it. We parted ways and he told me he would text me later.

I was walking through Walmart trying to find the aisle of school supplies because I needed two binders for school when I get a text message from T asking me if I think he's cute. I texted back 'Dude I'm gay'. He replied with 'No way I didn't know that. I'm sorry.' Just to let you guys in on something, he saw what I was wearing today and no straight girl would wear a dress shirt and tie. He saw me last semester when I wore shirts and ties. I feel bad for T because he liked me but at the same time I don't. It was no secret in my drama class that I'm gay. I sat by my friend C and she is also a lesbian who makes it very obvious. My friend B knew I was a lesbian on the first day of class. There were no secrets. I'm pretty sure that there was one day that I announced it while we were all goofing around before class. I'm not sure if he was there when our teacher read our dreams that we wrote about but if he was then he would have noticed how very homosexual my dream was. I was playing football and scored the winning touchdown for the New York Giants (don't diss my Giants) when Portia de Rossi came out of the tunnel under the stands. I tried and tried to reach her but ultimately failed in my attempt when I woke up.

I texted C about what T asked and she thought it was funny. I didn't think so. C has a girlfriend and if you didn't know her personally you would think that she is a guy. I am proud to say that I knew she was girl from the moment I met her kind of like how B knew I was a lesbian on the first day of class. B is very straight and I completely respect that probably because I love her boyfriend, in a just friends way. She told me that my body language and the way I sat down made it obvious for her.

I guess B is an exception to my 'Only Gay People Have Gaydar' theory.

These two incidents are not the only ones, just the major ones that really help me establish my credibility. I had several guys hit on me/flirt with me over the summer. Most of them I met through my ex-bff AD. I can take a compliment and they are greatly appreciated. I just wish that some lesbians would get in on it too. Is that too much to ask?

Sunday, January 3, 2010

My new layout...

If you are reading this latest post I'm sure you have noticed that A Leap of Faith has under gone a facelift. I've been wanting to change the layout for awhile to something that suits my style and personality. My bedroom is in the process of being made over to look more grown up so I thought my blog should be made over too.

What do you think? Is it me?