Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Warning! Vomit-inducing blog post!

I have these little things floating around in my stomach. I think they're called Butterflies. I've had them before. They are always welcome in my stomach :)
I met a girl, Tricia, last Thursday. She came to see a performance of my play. She caught me in the lobby afterwards and we started talking. We hit it off right away. She was wearing a rainbow studded belt and commented that I have one at home just like it. I couldn't believe that I was talking to a girl who is totally my type and not mention she's a lesbian! That never happens to me!
She was with a friend but decided she wanted to go somewhere and talk. I suggested Village Inn because it's open late and you can order just about anything you want. The host sat us at a booth and I thought that Tricia would sit by her friend so I slid into one side. What do you know! Tricia sat down right next to me. I ordered fruit because I can never eat much of anything after a show. Tricia and her friend shared Nutella crepes. They picked at them because they weren't very good. When the bill came Tricia grabbed it before I could. She's a sneaky one! Usually I like to pay but she beat me to it. When I got home I got a text from her saying she had a really great time. I did too :) I thanked her again for paying and she told me that it was a lovely meal and it was her pleasure. She didn't like what she ordered so I'm pretty sure she wasn't talking about the food. We texted all day on Friday and over the weekend. Some of our texts are kind of nauseating. We made plans to hang out again this Thursday. We both want to watch the musical episode of Grey's Anatomy, so why not watch it together?
She lives at home with her parents but so do I so that's not a big deal. She asked her mom if I could come over on Thursday. Her mom said I was welcome to come over and have dinner with them too. Whoa! Hold up! I haven't even taken this girl out yet and I'm already meeting her parents and having dinner with them?! Talk about pressure! I won't just be meeting her parents. I'll be meeting their foreign exchange student, Alice, and Tricia's little brother. I'm kind of freaking out. All my friends said I'll be fine. Everyone loves me. However, there are some people, believe it or not, who do not like me.
I hope I'm not too nervous to eat and I really hope they like me! Tricia likes me, but I want her family to like me too! Her mom seems like a pretty cool lady. Tricia sent me a transcript of their conversation when she asked if I could come over.
Mom: "Is this girl someone with, uh, romantic potential?"
Tricia: "Yes mom"
Mom: "Thank god! You've had a huge dryspell!"
Ahahaha! Her mom is so awesome.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Idina Menzel!

I don't even know where to start with the entry!! March 2nd was an epic day on so many levels!
My mom didn't like the idea of me driving to Indianpolis but I told her I was going to do it anyway. I'm 20 years old. She bought me plane tickets. I had to pay for my hotel room but that wasn't too expensive. I flew out of Des Moines at 12 and I had just enough time to make it to my gate in Minneapolis. I landed in Indiana around 4:30 and Amanda was already waiting at my hotel. I called for the shuttle to come pick me up. Amanda could have done it but we didn't know how easy it was to pick someone up at the airport there. Sometimes its kinda screwy and you can't just sit in your car and wait for someone. I met Amanda at the hotel and we got ready to go to the concert. We ate at Pita Pit, I don't have one in Iowa. I was fascinated to say the least lol. We found the theater before we ate so we walked around for a little bit and took pictures in front of the sign. We looked like total goofballs but we were so excited!

The concert was so amazing! We were in the same building as Idina Menzel. What could be better than that?

Meeting Idina at the stage door and getting her autograph! That's what!

We waited in the cold for what seemed like forever! She finally came out and Amanda freaked out. I got my program signed and Idina went to the other side before she could sign Amanda's. She stood there saying she would cry if she didn't get an autograph. I was a little embarrassed. But I totally get her obsession so I really couldn't say anything. I would have been her if this happened 2 years ago.
We arrived back at the hotel around 11. We took pics of us together to document that we finally met after being friends for about a year.
I am well aware that we look bright eyed and absolutely stunning in this picture lol. Amanda had planned on staying but she decided that it would be better for her to drive home instead of sleeping for a few hours. She knows how her body works so I reluctantly let her go. I had the king size bed all to myself and I wish I had a picture of little tiny me in this huge bed. I bet it looked hilarious!

More blog posts will come tomorrow. I don't want to overwhelm you guys.

I really do feel like an idiot now

My car broke down today so I'm stuck at home until it's fixed. I guess I'll use this time to update my blog! Yay!

Okay so Amanda and I talked about dating awhile ago which prompted me to write the "I feel like an idiot" entry. Now, I really do feel like an idiot but for a whole different reason.
I was well aware that Amanda and I dating wasn't going to be a reality any time soon after we talked about it because we hadn't met in person. I was under the impression that there was still a possibility. Then we made plans to meet at the Idina Menzel concert a few week ago. In my mind this changed the game. We were meeting in person. A couple weeks before the concert Amanda told me that the girl she had been previously seeing asked her to be her girlfriend. I asked about Kristin and Amanda told me that they were just friends so why would she bring up the idea of us dating if she had feelings for this girl? I was shocked and hurt. I told Amanda that I was hurt because I thought that us meeting in person changed the game. She told me that she was clear with me that it wasn't going to work out distance-wise and otherwise. She does live 8 hours away from me but I have no idea what she means by otherwise. Here's where I get upset. She explained that "it wasn't going to happen any time soon". That does not mean the same thing as "it's not going to work out". She wasn't clear with me because she didn't say what she meant.
I don't understand how she didn't know that I had developed feelings for her. I told her that I was interested in dating and I was willing to work out the distance thing if she was. We talked every day, all day. I just don't understand why she would even bring it up if she knew it wasn't going to work.
You can't fake what we have. We understand each other in ways that even our very best friends don't. We just click. Other than a miscommunication, we just get each other and we always know what the other is thinking or feeling even through texts. I know her text language so well that I know what her mood is, whether she is stressed, excited, tired, etc.
Taylor Swift's "You Belong With Me" is constantly running through my head. 95% of those lyrics describe our relationship. At least they do to me.
Amanda broke up with the other girl about a week ago. I asked her why and she said she just wasn't feeling it. I knew she hadn't been feeling it since Kristin asked her out because she wasn't sure the night she told me. You're either feeling it or you aren't. She wasn't. It's been kinda hard to talk to her since the break up. She feels really bad about it and it doesn't help that Kristin is being immature. I know it's hard but she needs to get over it. When Amanda was seeing Kristin I put away the idea of us dating. It wasn't going to happen and it still probably isn't so I let it go. I am still hurt but I don't let it get in the way of our friendship. I know that hurt will go away. I made her promise me that this wouldn't hurt our friendship and so far it hasn't. Sometimes when she was talking about how Kristin wasn't supporting her interests, I just wanted to say "Maybe you should have chosen your girlfriend a little more carefully" but I held my tongue because saying that wouldn't do me any good.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Busy, Busy, Busy

I have lots of things to write but no time!

I will update you all on the "I feel like an idiot post", the Idina Menzel concert with Amanda, my play that opens in 4 days, and my wonderful platonic life partner Alex.

Next week is spring break so hopefully I can rest and get some blogging done.