Thursday, March 25, 2010

Homework.. UGH!

For as long as I can remember homework has always been a constant battle with me. I always had latework and missing assignments in elementary and middle school because I hated doing my homework. I would pass every test with flying colors but you wouldn't know it if you looked at my grades. In junior high the late work policy was strict and it was enforced. If you had one missing assignment you failed the class. The teachers would accept latework which was a god send for me. Getting half credit for an assignment instead of a zero was way better than failing out of junior high.
Once I got to highschool the teachers were way more lenient. My freshman year is one that I really don't like to remember at least the academic portion. I've always like science and my freshman year I had to take a Physical Science class. It was just a basic introductory course. I was bored. I liked the class and I knew the material but doing daily work was a struggle for me. I was one of those kids in highschool that you just wanted to punch in face because I never had to study for anything. I never studied for my science tests and I aced them every time. My teacher didn't understand me. Usually students do well on the daily work portion and poorly on the tests and quizzes portion of the class. What I'm saying is, if I know the material then I'm less likely to do the homework over it because it bores me. I already understand it so why do I need more practice?
I grew out of this phase my sophomore year of highschool and it has carried through until last semester. My fall semester grades were excellent. I loved school but now that I look back I hardly ever had homework. This semester I am taking a film class because I need a humanities credit and I have at least one paper due every week. It only needs to be a page long but actually sitting down and doing it is daunting. I hate it! I am behind in this class and I should have worked on it over spring break but I had no motivation. It also doesn't help that the films we have been watching just bore me to death. I have almost fallen asleep during the films for the past three weeks. We are supposed to be active viewers and we have to look at the cinematography and all sorts of stuff. It's hard to be an active viewer when the film does not hold my attention. I have a newfound appreciation for French films but that doesn't mean I have to like them.
I have learned something from this. No matter how much I hate homework and no matter how much of a battle it is I still shouldn't lie to my girlfriend about it. I just have to realize that she's not my mom and she's not going to lecture me but that fear is ingrained in my head and it's hard to break habits.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Beautiful Blogger!

This BBA has its rules:

1. Thank the person who gave you this award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Pass the award along to 15 bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic!
4. Contact the bloggers you've picked and let them know about the award.

I want to give a big thank you to my wonderful girlfriend Jessi! She really is too cute to be gay :) lol

Okay so I have to come up with 7 things about me that I haven't already shared. Here goes...
1. I have a slight case of OCD. Everything in my room has it's place and said things should be in their places at all times. My bookshelf is uber-organized. It's way too complicated to explain, you'll have to see for yourself.
2. I am obsessed with chapstick. I always have chapstick and if I don't I feel lost without it. I like just the regular old chapstick even though my girlfriend says it tastes like butt. How she knows what butt tastes like, I don't know. I didn't ask.
3. I love The Little Mermaid. Ariel is the best Disney Princess ever!
4. I am fiercely independent. I like to do things myself. Just because I'm a girl and I'm little doesn't mean I can't do things. I also don't like when other people pay for me. I feel insulted even if they are just trying to take care of me ;) Jessi.
5. I am forever grateful to my friends and family for supporting me and loving me for who I am.
6. I like to sing in the car and I think I'm getting pretty good at it :) I've never had a voice lesson in my life but it helps that I have a musical ear. Thank you 8 years of band!
7. Speaking of band... I played in the school band for 8 years. I started out on the clarinet. I was pretty much an instrument whore. I played keyboard percussion, I taught myself how to play flute and trumpet. In my junior year I got to play the oboe in concert band. I loved it! Playing the oboe was one of the best experiences of my life. It also played into my independent streak. I was my own section and I was in charge of myself, my instrument and my music. I didn't have a section leader to answer to.

Now to pass on this lovely award :)

1. This first one is a former English teacher of mine. I enjoy reading excerpts that she posts and other ideas for her novels.

2. I really enjoy this blog :) She goes by lezstar and blogs about everything lesbian. I really like reading about her take on lesbian issues from Constance McMillen to her own coming out story.

3. I know that Jessi passed on the award to The Surprise Dyke in her blog. I can't help but do the same :) Her blog posts always make me smile whether they are recapping a funny moment in her classroom, a funny conversation she had with her girlfriend or just one that she over heard while at work they always have me rolling!

4. This blogger is also one of my former English teachers. Her posts are mainly about her two wonderful little boys :) Her blog is mainly for keeping friend and family updated. Her layout is super cute! If you want to see two of the most adorable little boys be sure to check her out!

That's all I got. Go check them out!

I decided that when I'm talking about my girlfriend I'm just going to call her Jessi instead of J. She has her own blog with her name on it so what's with all the fake anonymity?

Monday, March 22, 2010

Family and Facebook

So.. I wasn't thinking properly when I saw that my grandma now has a facebook and requested to be her friend.
My dad's mom is on facebook now. Two family members suggested that I be friends with her. I sent her a friend request thinking "Oh she'll see this in about a month. That's plenty of time for me to tell her that I'm gay and that I'm dating J." Boy was I wrong. I got home from school today and saw that she had accepted my friend request and commented on one of my posts about J.
Lucky for me I have a second cousin who is gay and lives in California with her girlfriend/partner and their two adopted daughters. Grandma adores them. I knew she would be okay with me being gay but I just couldn't find the right time to tell her. I'm pretty sure that she suspected though because of all the conversations we had about marriage equality and civil rights (notice I didn't say 'gay rights'. We are not special we are just normal people who deserve the rights that everyone else has).
I'm kind of disappointed that I didn't get to tell her about J in person. She deserves to hear it from me, not from facebook. I guess I just have to deal with it.
I don't want to brag but while I'm on the subject of telling my family, I'm going to say that everyone in my family knows that I'm gay and they are all really cool about it. I'm actually waiting for someone not to be. I don't understand how I got so lucky to have a family who accepts and loves me for who I am. Not everybody has that and I feel so lucky and extremely grateful that I do. I don't have to keep J a secret from them, not that I could even if I had to. She's just so amazing that I have to share it with everybody :)

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Hippos and Daisies

My girl makes me happy in more ways than I could ever possibly imagine. :) I wanted to do something for her that showed how much I really appreciate her. She told me that she likes Hippos but she didn't have a stuffed Hippo because she could never find one. So I made it my personal mission to find my girl a stuffed Hippo.

And what do you know, I found one :) She loves her Hippo.

J and Maggie :)

Now she wasn't the only one to get a present. She brought me a present too :) My present won't last as long as a Hippo but I love it just as much! J got me white daisies. Now, I'm not a flower kind of girl. I don't really like flowers but there's something about daisies. Ever since I was little I have always had something that had daisies on it.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

She's so romantic

This week felt like one of the longest of my life. J told me that she had a surprise for me so this whole week I had been pondering about what it could be. When Friday afternoon finally came around, it was definitely worth the wait. I met J at our meeting place and she came out to my car with her surprise. She handed me a Valentine's coffee mug with three different candies in it. We had a conversation about our favorite candy on the phone and we figured out that basically we both like the same candy. I like some stuff that she doesn't like and vice-versa but for the most part we are pretty much the same when it comes to our taste for candy.

At this point I really liked my surprise. She put some of my favorite candies in a really cute coffee mug. I like candy and I like coffee. She told me that the coffee mug was a Valentine's one because she saw my twitter post that said I wished Valentine's Day came twice a year because I missed it this year with her. This girl pays attention!

She told me to take the candy out and read what was in the bottom of the cup. And this is what I saw.

J said it took me forever to answer but maybe that's because she was nervous :) It took me forever to answer because she took my breath away and I had to breathe before I could speak. There was a rush of emotion that I can't even come close to describing. I was actually going to ask her but I didn't have anything like this planned. She's so romantic and of course I said...


J has a blog too! You can find it here I'm proud to say that I got her to start blogging :) She reads mine and I read hers so there's no secrets.

"We don't lie to each other, there's no need. " (Mama K)