Arizona Robbins

For those of you who have seen my facebook updates and if you have listened to me talk about Grey's Anatomy you know that I will swear up and down that Shonda Rhimes stole my personality and gave it to the character of Arizona Robbins.

Arizona is perky and fun and blonde. She wears heely's and she has little animals on her labcoat. She loves kids. She cries when she is challenging an authority figure. Arizona's passionate and tough. In pediatrics the kids' IV bags are filled with fairy dust, they play pretend and they are tiny humans. They are not just general surgery in miniature, they have their own specialty that takes extra years of training.

I've known who I am for basically my entire life. I've always known that I'm gay. I genuinely tried to be straight in highschool but with the boyfriend count at 0 it didn't go so well. I came out to my mom when she saw the poster of Kim Kardashian on my wall. Even if I wouldn't have come out I'm pretty sure it wouldn't have surprised her if I brought a girl home. My dad knew I was gay before I came out. He told people at my 19th birthday that he knew I was a lesbian he was just waiting for me to come out of the closet. I didn't come out in high school because I was in sports and I didn't want to deal with awkward locker room situations. Believe me a high school gym locker room is the last place I want to be checking out chicks.

To show you the similarities between Arizona and I rather than just tell you I have included a video to back up my claim that Arizona Robbins was created from my personality.

Do I Need a Button?

Do I need a button a that says 'Hi I'm Gay' ?

Yet again, I have to let a guy down because I'm gay.

A really annoying guy sat next to me in Chemistry today. He flirted with me the whole time. I just wanted to say "Dude don't waste your breath or time flirting with me because it's not going to get you anywhere."

At first it seemed that he was just being friendly and wanted someone to talk to then it just got plain annoying.

He actually wrote in his notebook where I could see:
"Don't sit next to her lol >" yes he even drew an arrow pointing to me. I tried not to laugh at his failed comedy.

I'm pretty sure the "lol" at the end means he wasn't serious so basically he is bad at flirting and he doesn't have gaydar. If he really felt that way he would have kept it to himself or maybe, I can only hope, that he was serious.

I should get myself a button that says "Hi I'm Gay" just to cut out all confusion.

Do Only Gay People Have Gaydar?

I ask you this question fellow readers because I thought I make it very obvious that I'm gay by the way I dress, carry myself, adorn my backpack with rainbows, etc. Today was the second time that I have had a guy from school tell me that he likes me only to be disaapointed with the fact that I am gay.

In May a kid from my Composition class asked me out after the semester had ended because he thought I was cute. At the time I wasn't comfortable with telling someone who I barely knew that I'm gay. I also wasn't technically out so I probably wasn't even a blip on anyone's gaydar. I told him that I was going through some personal stuff and it would be better if I remained single, which was completely true.

Today a similar situation happened in the student lounge. I had a class last semester with this guy whom I will call T. I saw him today in the student lounge and gave him a nod acknowledging that I saw him. The next thing I know he is sitting at my table with me. I wasn't alone the whole time, a couple of people that I know through my friend B were sitting there and I joined them before they had to leave. T and I started chatting about classes and our teacher from last semester. It was mainly just small talk, then he asked me for my phone number. I know this guy and I think he's pretty cool so I didn't think anything of it. We parted ways and he told me he would text me later.

I was walking through Walmart trying to find the aisle of school supplies because I needed two binders for school when I get a text message from T asking me if I think he's cute. I texted back 'Dude I'm gay'. He replied with 'No way I didn't know that. I'm sorry.' Just to let you guys in on something, he saw what I was wearing today and no straight girl would wear a dress shirt and tie. He saw me last semester when I wore shirts and ties. I feel bad for T because he liked me but at the same time I don't. It was no secret in my drama class that I'm gay. I sat by my friend C and she is also a lesbian who makes it very obvious. My friend B knew I was a lesbian on the first day of class. There were no secrets. I'm pretty sure that there was one day that I announced it while we were all goofing around before class. I'm not sure if he was there when our teacher read our dreams that we wrote about but if he was then he would have noticed how very homosexual my dream was. I was playing football and scored the winning touchdown for the New York Giants (don't diss my Giants) when Portia de Rossi came out of the tunnel under the stands. I tried and tried to reach her but ultimately failed in my attempt when I woke up.

I texted C about what T asked and she thought it was funny. I didn't think so. C has a girlfriend and if you didn't know her personally you would think that she is a guy. I am proud to say that I knew she was girl from the moment I met her kind of like how B knew I was a lesbian on the first day of class. B is very straight and I completely respect that probably because I love her boyfriend, in a just friends way. She told me that my body language and the way I sat down made it obvious for her.

I guess B is an exception to my 'Only Gay People Have Gaydar' theory.

These two incidents are not the only ones, just the major ones that really help me establish my credibility. I had several guys hit on me/flirt with me over the summer. Most of them I met through my ex-bff AD. I can take a compliment and they are greatly appreciated. I just wish that some lesbians would get in on it too. Is that too much to ask?

My new layout...

If you are reading this latest post I'm sure you have noticed that A Leap of Faith has under gone a facelift. I've been wanting to change the layout for awhile to something that suits my style and personality. My bedroom is in the process of being made over to look more grown up so I thought my blog should be made over too.

What do you think? Is it me?

A very purple room...

I mentioned in earlier blog posts that I'm getting my room redocorated. Today began step one of my bedroom makeover. There were a couple bumps along the way but now that it is done I am so glad that I can sit back and relax.

In 2004 my mom and I bought pink and purple paint so I could paint my bedroom. My bedroom in 2004 is not my bedroom now. They are not even in the same house. I have been in my current bedroom for 2 and half years. My walls have been a neutral beige and I just left them that way because we started out renting our house and I wasn't sure if I was allowed to paint my room. I was hesitant to ask because the paint that I had from 2004 was dark purple or so I thought.

Fast forward to this morning. After having my brother shake the paint can, I proceeded to pry off the lid and I was met with an almost vomit inducing lavender. It wasn't even very purply. It was like a pink lavender. That was not the paint color I picked out in 2004. My mom and I found a color that matched a dark purple comforter that I was using at the time. Apparently the paint guy wasn't paying attention and mixed the color above the one I picked out on the paint swatch. So I had to make a trip to Walmart to get the paint color that I wanted. While at Walmart I found the paint swatch from 2004 and sure enough Purple Majesty was in the can and not Purple Grandeur.

Now I have two gallons of paint that I have no idea what I'm going to do with because it is not going on my walls.

An impromptu trip to Walmart, some painters tape, a paint roller, a paint brush, a cold metal step ladder, 6 hours, and one gallon of brand new Purple Grandeur later... this is what my bedroom looks like after step one of my room makeover.

My mystery present is revealed!!

Back in November my mom told me that she had a mystery present for me and I would never be able to guess what it is. She told me it's something that I really want but I didn't ask for it. I knew it couldn't be anything on my christmas list because I showed it to her. I was puzzling over this mystery present for a good long while. It was driving me nuts that she got me something that she knew I really wanted but didn't ask for. I thought that all I wanted for Christmas was what I had asked for. It wasn't really much. I want an Ipod touch, an acoustic guitar, a bookshelf for my mountain of books, that really cool push up bra from Victoria's Secret that makes you look two cup sizes bigger (I could use a couple more cup sizes), and there were a few other things but I don't remember what they were. I'm still getting my room redone because my bedspread and my pictures that my mom found have been sitting in the living room waiting for the basement to be finished so I can put them in my room. I didn't have much to open because my room is part of my christmas presents. I had three boxes sitting in front of me while my brothers had a pile of boxes. I wasn't jealous because I'm too excited about my room and my mystery present. Plus the amount of money spent on me equaled what was spent on my brothers so it all evened out and I'm grown up enough to understand that quality is better than quantity.

It has always been tradition in my house to open our presents from mom and dad at home on Christmas Eve, that's why I can tell you about them now. The first present I opened was my pictures. They were all wrapped up nicely after being framed so I had to unwrap them to show everyone else. Then I opened a box that had a book all about Taylor Swift. I'm a huge Taylor Swift fan so that was a really cool gift by itself. Now there are two square boxes that have been sitting with our presents in the living room since the day we went Christmas shopping. One is medium sized and the other is small. They sat on top of the presents stacked on top of each other. I knew they were part of my mystery present and having them sit there where I could see them was driving me even more crazy than before. I was instructed to open the bigger box first. I took the ribbon off and inside were three wrapped presents. I opened the first and it was Taylor Swift's debut album, the second was Kellie Pickler's debut album, and the third was Gloriana's debut album. I had a feeling about where this gift was going because I know that Gloriana and Kellie are on tour with Taylor for her Fearless album. I opened the little box and sitting inside were two tickets to Taylor Swift's concert at Wells Fargo Arena on May 6th. I immediately burst into tears. I was so overcome with emotion. I never thought that I would ever have the chance to see Taylor live in concert because her concert tickets sell out in two minutes. My mom got presale tickets and then won two more tickets on the radio. My mom, me, my aunt and ten year old cousin are all going to see Taylor Swift in May!!!!

Some random facts about me and Taylor:
1)We are both named Taylor
2)She is 5 months and 6 days older than me
3)If she weren't a singer she said she would want to be a surgeon, I want to be a surgeon.
4)She was bullied in school by girls who she thought were her friends, I did too. Who doesn't?
5)We both have an odd obsession with Grey's Anatomy and the character of Denny Duquette.
5 1/2) We both cried when Denny died at the end of Season 2.
6)We both think that Ellen Degeneres is one of the coolest celebrities ever.
7)We both graduated with the class of 2008.
8)We both like to conduct random baking experiments.
9)We both think little kids are awesome. I want to be a pediatrician so that's kind of a requirement.
10)She is a girly girl while I am a tomboy.
11) Her preferred outfit is a sundress and cowboy boots. My preferred outfit is jeans, a tshirt, and sneakers. I do however own a sundress and cowboy boots from her clothing line at Walmart.
12) Her song 'You Belong With Me' is my theme song. I was that girl in high school.
(All of the info on Taylor Swift was taken from her myspace, blogs, and the awesome book that my mom bought me.)

Top 10 Fictional Lesbians

This is my list of my top ten fictional lesbians. I'm sure that there are many deserving characters who could be on this list but this list is mine and it reflects only my opinion.

10. Dr. Erica Hahn played by Brooke Smith on Grey's Anatomy



A hard nosed Cardiothoracic surgeon, she is the definition of a power dyke. If only she knew that before hooking up with Callie Torres and then breaking her heart. She might still be on the show.


9. Nadia Karella played by Jessica Capshaw on the L word



Nadia was Bette's teaching assistant who had the hot's for teacher. Their relationship was more of a one night stand than an actual relationship. All I can is that Nadia is hot and that's why she makes the list.


8. Shane McCutcheon played by Katherine "Kate" Moennig on the L word



Shane in a androgynous love 'em and leave 'em type of girl. Shane has had so many sexual encounters that she is a hub on Alice's chart. Shane is just really cool.


7. Tasha Williams played by Rose Rollins on the L word



A military soldier accused and tried for homosexual conduct. She was mostly involved with Alice until a certain girl by the name of Jamie came into the picture. Tasha struggled with how little she had in common with Alice. Tasha likes girly girls though. There's something about Tasha that makes her incredibly hot. Rose used to be a model so I think that helps.


6. Alice Pieszecki played by Leisha Hailey on the L word



A journalist for L.A. magazine, she is the only one among her group of friends who is a self proclaimed bisexual. Her most notable relationships were with Dana Fairbanks and Tasha Williams. Alice is a girly girl.


5. Bette Porter played by Jennifer Beals on the L word



Bette is a dominant Type A. Her most significant relationship was with Tina Kennard with whom she shares her daughter Angelica. She was an art curator and dean of the CU School of the Arts. Bette has been linked to other women while she was not with Tina and when she was with Tina. She cheated on girlfriend Jodi with Tina and Tibette eventually got back together.


4. Joanne Jefferson played by Tracie Thoms in the motion picture RENT (Left)
3. Maureen Johnson played by Idina Menzel in the motion picture RENT (right)



Joanne is a public interest attorney. Maureen is a performance artist who stages a performance to protest the eviction of the homeless and artists from Tent City. Maureen dated Mark but continuously cheated on him and eventually left him for Joanne. Joanne tries to tame Maureen's wild ways by getting her to commit to her. Maureen agrees although reluctantly. Maureen's flirtatious ways lead to a fight at their engagement party. The breaks up but soon realizes that they can't live without each other. They share a picture because it's the only good one of them in character.


2. Arizona Robbins played by Jessica Capshaw on Grey's Anatomy
Yes Jessica gets two spots. I mean who doesn't love Jessica Capshaw?


A perky butterfly scrub cap and heely wearing pediatric surgeon. Her romance with Callie Torres started with the now infamous dirty bar bathroom kiss. She initially rejected Callie after learning that she had only been with one other woman thus calling her a newborn. Arizona has known she is gay from the time she was a teenager. She gave Callie her, what I call, Supply Closet Speech. She never had boyfriends, ever. She had a poster of Cindy Crawford on her wall and she wasn't just looking at her mole. It wasn't news to her mom when she brought someone home named Joanne. She doesn't celebrate birthdays they are just another day to her. She talkes about rainbows, relationships and crap according to Alex Karev. She sees tiny coffins in her sleep and there's nothing she can do about them so she continues to talk about rainbows, relationships and crap to forget about them during the day. She declared her love to Callie in the episode Invest In Love 6X08 which focused on her and her pediatric cases. If you replace the Cindy Crawford poster with a Kim Kardashian poster Arizona has pretty much described me. Our personalities are so similar that I swear Shonda Rhimes stole my personality and gave it to Arizona. We both love Callie so it could be true...

1. Calliope Torres played by Sara Ramirez on Grey's Anatomy



Callie's a badass, hardcore orthopedic surgeon that had me swooning even before I knew I was gay. The beautiful Sara Ramirez helps in the looks department. Callie fell in love with George and beared her heart to him. After their marriage fell apart due to his infidelity, she turned to the resident man-whore and her best friend, Mark Sloan to help her get over George. After making friends with Erica Hahn, Addison came up from L.A. and suggested that the two looked like a very happy couple. Callie dismissed it at first but they soon realized their true feelings. Addison's suggestion led to a string of events that include a kiss, an awkward conversation about northern mountains and the motherland with Dr. Bailey, a first date, non-sex sex with a girl, Calle cheating with Mark to test her sexuality and ultimately Callie's heart getting broken when Erica disappeared into the parking lot after an argument and never returning. Mark is there for support again but just as a friend this time. Callie is upset when Lexie won't stop talking about her relationship with Mark so she runs off to the bathroom to compose herself. Then along comes Arizona Robbins. Arizona tells her that people are lining up for her when she's done being upset. Callie askes her for some names. Arizona kisses her and says "I think you'll know." Their relationship was a little rocky at first but they made it through. Arizona declared her love for Callie and so many emotions played out over her face. I thought she was going to freak out but when her whispered "I love you too" came over the black screen before the credits I almost exploded. That moment right there made up for the lack of Calzona couple time on screen. We have seen two more or less pecks on the lips in season 6. Shonda and Jessica say that there is some sexy Calzona time coming up next year. Fans have been bombarding Shonda with questions about why we don't see Callie and Arizona be intimate when we see every other couple in that light. The fans want equality!

There are so many more lesbian characters that could have made this list but in my opinion these ten are the best. Many of them simply made the list because I swoon over them. It's my list and I can put whoever I want on it.