College Excitement

I have survived 2 weeks of classes at Simpson College and I LOVE IT!!!!
I'm making friends in my classes. I have a huge crush on one L.C. She is the most peculiar girl I have ever met and even her name sounds cool. I'm not quite sure what to think of her yet. We are partners for the History of Molecules project that we were assigned on the first day of Organic Chem. We drew molecule names out of a box and L and I happened to draw the same one. She is captivating. I think she'd make a pretty cool friend. We have a break between classes at the same time on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. On Friday she invited me to hang out with her during our break :D
So far I like all of my classes. I have a bigger work load than I thought I would but it's nothing that a little time management can't handle. I cut down my work hours. I've found that working more than 8 hours a week just doesn't work for me. I wish I could afford to live on campus. However, with home being only 20 minutes away I think I would be tempted to sleep at home in my own bed way too often. I wouldn't be able to handle roommates. Upperclassmen dorms and apartments on campus have more than two girls in each unit. The dorms have 2 quads with 4 girls each sharing one bathroom and the apartments are 2 bedrooms with 4 girls and one bathroom. I can't stand sharing a bathroom with my brother at home. I get my own room at home and I don't have to worry about anyone coming and going while I'm trying to sleep or someone snoring and keeping me awake all night. Oh, and paying for gas in my car is way cheaper than paying room & board and paying for a meal plan. I think I made a smart decision by staying home. I also learned that I can put money on my account at the dining hall so all I have to do is swipe my ID card to buy food instead of carrying cash all the time. That is awesome!! I'm there all day on Thursdays so it will be nice to be able to get lunch and stay on campus. There are plenty of places that are very near campus but I think the dining hall might be the cheaper option.
I am loving Simpson way more than DMACC. I see my Biology professor 4 times a week in class but I see her almost twice as much outside of class. I practically live in the science building so when I'm in there I usually run into her. I also like that the faculty interacts with students outside of class and office hours. At DMACC you had to make an appointment, hope they were in their office or make sure you asked questions in class. Never have I had a professor approach me while I was studying and ask me if I had any questions or needed any help. I definitely made a great choice to continue my education at Simpson.

AWESOME NEWS ABOUT MY CAR!!!

My mom talked to the guy who is fixing it for me and it should be fixed by Monday or Tuesday. He got all the parts, and he's painting it for me for $700. I am so excited to get my car back! I miss it so much. The car I'm driving is nicer than mine but I don't like the way it handles and it just isn't comfortable to drive. I want my car.

Summer Recap

I haven't posted since June and I sincerely apologize. My first day of classes at Simpson College is tomorrow so I thought now would be a good time to post a recap of what I did this summer.

June/July was filled with play rehearsals, work and parties.
Rehearsals for Bland Mary and Daisy began May 28th and we ended our run at the Civic Center on July 23rd.

DAISY is a delightful piece about a child’s first social dilemma:
choosing the perfect birthday gift for a friend. The play is not without
reflection, as the gift from this very ordinary child must bring acceptance into the social elite. Provides insight into the social hierarchy of children and the necessity of owning a “Gucci” bag at the age of twelve. Daisy was written by a 10 year-old girl.
I think the casting for this play was ridiculous. This isn't coming from jealousy but I think I should have been Daisy and Alex should have been Bob Yamaguchi. She had the Eastern Asian accent in the auditions and did it way better than any of us. I wouldn't ever say this to her face but I think she was horrible as Daisy. She wasn't interesting to watch or listen to. Her voice did not fit the part at all.

The cast of Daisy with our 17 year old director.

Me as Bob Yamaguchi. He loves his bonsai trees.
BLAND MARY is a comedy which examines how the modern world and its relentless stimulation has dulled our senses; our ability to listen, see, and even taste. Central to the play is Mary, a typical teen-ager, thoroughly immersed in a world of technology. With her companion lap-top, Ipod, and texting, she has become blind to the world around her.

I was the television thief. No one noticed that the tv was gone until scene 3. I stole it in scene 1, right under the nose of a blind man.

One day we decided to have a parade with all of us dressed up in wacky costumes. This is what our 'parade' turned into.

Chain Gang



All of August I have been working like crazy to save up money. Hanging out with my friends pretty much every weekend.

Le Boi Bar for my friend Kollan's birthday!

One of very few pictures of me at a party in Ames.

The Huff Theatre group at the Fourth Street Theatre for The Andy Hartley Show!

And a week before classes start I got caught in a traffic jam on the interstate and this is what happened to my car. I'm completely fine. The only damage was to my car. I hit a truck with a trailer hitch so that's why it looks so bad. There was construction that no one knew about. Stupid people were stopping traffic to merge into one lane. Each time we started moving again we got going a little faster. While I was checking my clock and my mirrors traffic must have stopped again because the truck in front of me was way too close. I slammed on my brakes and turned my wheels to try to drive onto the shoulder. I didn't have enough room and I ended up hitting the truck. I'm borrowing my grandpa's car to drive to work and school. I have no social life until my car is fixed or if one of my brothers lets me drive his car. Actually the no car thing has gotten me out of some stuff that I didn't really want to do but I was too nice to say no. At least something good is coming out of this situation.

Recap and Gay Pride!!

I know it's been forever since I last blogged but I got busy with the end of the school year and nothing exciting enough to blog about has really happened since then.
Recap of April and May and then onto Gay Pride!!
April:
Tricia and I decided to just be friends. We are way too much alike to date each other and she's a little too young for me.
My student play White Picket Fence was a hit!! Our audience at the evening performance loved it!!

I went to Seattle for the 93rd Annual Phi Theta Kappa International Convention.




May: I graduated with my associates degree.

A serious pic with my best friend Alex.

A silly one cuz we had a ton of time to kill before the ceremony.

Now onto Gay Pride 2011!!
Tricia and I went to Kansas City Pride last weekend. I drove 3 hours one way just to see Chely Wright. The only out lesbian country singer. If you don't know who she is then shame on you! She does so much for the lgbt community. She has an organization called LikeMe her latest album and her first book were released last year. A bar owner donated money to her booth so young people who are low on funds could have Chely's music for free. I got her latest album and her Damn Liar dance remix cd completely for free and had them both autographed. We stayed after her concert and got to meet her! She is the sweetest. She looks right into your eyes when she talks to you and really makes you feel special. She was genuinely interested in what I'm doing with my life and what I'm doing in the lgbt community. I told her that I was in an article that inspired an lgbt club on my college campus and when I'm a teacher there will be a GSA or some type of club that lgbt students can participate in.

This weekend I went to Pride in Des Moines. I had tons of fun with all my friends on Saturday night. I got a little intoxicated (I'm legal now!!) and thought it was a good idea to talk to Jessi's current girlfriend. I recognized her from her facebook picture. Jessi wasn't with her which I'm surprised that she was even there if Jessi wasn't there too cuz she never let me have a social life outside of her. Anyway, I was polite and introduced myself. I don't really remember what all I said to her but I'm pretty sure it wasn't anything rude.
I went again on Sunday to see the parade and other festivities with Tricia. I did see Jessi on Sunday for the first time in over a year. Every time I saw her she was all over the GF. That doesn't surprised me one bit. I had a ton of fun with all of my friends and I'm so glad that I don't have a GF like Jessi to monopolize all of my time. I could go wherever and do whatever with whoever I wanted and I had a blast!!
I've always been completely honest with you guys so I feel that I should tell you that I made a decision on Saturday night that probably wasn't a very smart one. It's not one that will get me into trouble but it will hurt someone if they find out. I'm not proud of it. It's over with now and I can't take it back.

Family Dinner

I had dinner with Tricia's family last night. They remind me so much of mine! Her little brother is so similar to mine when they were his age. It was so weird! I found them very refreshing because they actually sit at the kitchen table as a family and they have manners. We sit at tv trays in the living room or we eat in our bedrooms. Her mom reminds me alot of a friend's mom. She talked to me alot so I think she likes me :)
After dinner, Tricia and I went to Baskin Robbins for ice cream. Best ice cream ever!! Well, besides Coldstone it's the best ice cream ever.
Grey's Anatomy was epic!! We both thought it was hilarious that our conversation during the commercials would immediately stop when Grey's came back on and we would resume like there was never a pause at the next commercial. Tricia has promised to wait to watch next week's episode until I get back from Seattle. I know that if she watches without me she's going to let things slip and I don't want any spoilers!
She is so easy to talk to! I love that I can talk about theater, Broadway shows, Broadway actresses and all the amazing things they do with their voices and she knows exactly what I'm talking about! I don't have to explain something that I'm passionate about to her. We both have met Idina Menzel and adore her!
We both love small children too! During the summer I posted about my ladybug and all the fun stuff we do. I get to watch her on Saturday and Tricia is hanging out at the mall with us!
A huge difference between Jessi and Tricia is that things are actually moving at a comfortable pace. She hasn't tried to kiss me yet which I'm not complaining about because Jessi mauled me on the first date. I also love the playful banter between us! It's the friendly exchange of insults which is actually really adorable and kinda flirty. I couldn't do that with Jessi. She would say something to make fun of me but if I gave it back to her she would pout. Tricia throws it right back at me. She didn't even notice she was doing it until I told her I liked that about her. I noticed it because I look for it. Jessi made me aware of it and it's a trait I look for because it shows that a girl has self-confidence and she's mature enough to handle herself in the real-world.
From the way things are going I think Tricia and I might have something great.

Warning! Vomit-inducing blog post!

I have these little things floating around in my stomach. I think they're called Butterflies. I've had them before. They are always welcome in my stomach :)
I met a girl, Tricia, last Thursday. She came to see a performance of my play. She caught me in the lobby afterwards and we started talking. We hit it off right away. She was wearing a rainbow studded belt and commented that I have one at home just like it. I couldn't believe that I was talking to a girl who is totally my type and not mention she's a lesbian! That never happens to me!
She was with a friend but decided she wanted to go somewhere and talk. I suggested Village Inn because it's open late and you can order just about anything you want. The host sat us at a booth and I thought that Tricia would sit by her friend so I slid into one side. What do you know! Tricia sat down right next to me. I ordered fruit because I can never eat much of anything after a show. Tricia and her friend shared Nutella crepes. They picked at them because they weren't very good. When the bill came Tricia grabbed it before I could. She's a sneaky one! Usually I like to pay but she beat me to it. When I got home I got a text from her saying she had a really great time. I did too :) I thanked her again for paying and she told me that it was a lovely meal and it was her pleasure. She didn't like what she ordered so I'm pretty sure she wasn't talking about the food. We texted all day on Friday and over the weekend. Some of our texts are kind of nauseating. We made plans to hang out again this Thursday. We both want to watch the musical episode of Grey's Anatomy, so why not watch it together?
She lives at home with her parents but so do I so that's not a big deal. She asked her mom if I could come over on Thursday. Her mom said I was welcome to come over and have dinner with them too. Whoa! Hold up! I haven't even taken this girl out yet and I'm already meeting her parents and having dinner with them?! Talk about pressure! I won't just be meeting her parents. I'll be meeting their foreign exchange student, Alice, and Tricia's little brother. I'm kind of freaking out. All my friends said I'll be fine. Everyone loves me. However, there are some people, believe it or not, who do not like me.
I hope I'm not too nervous to eat and I really hope they like me! Tricia likes me, but I want her family to like me too! Her mom seems like a pretty cool lady. Tricia sent me a transcript of their conversation when she asked if I could come over.
Mom: "Is this girl someone with, uh, romantic potential?"
Tricia: "Yes mom"
Mom: "Thank god! You've had a huge dryspell!"
Ahahaha! Her mom is so awesome.

Idina Menzel!

I don't even know where to start with the entry!! March 2nd was an epic day on so many levels!
My mom didn't like the idea of me driving to Indianpolis but I told her I was going to do it anyway. I'm 20 years old. She bought me plane tickets. I had to pay for my hotel room but that wasn't too expensive. I flew out of Des Moines at 12 and I had just enough time to make it to my gate in Minneapolis. I landed in Indiana around 4:30 and Amanda was already waiting at my hotel. I called for the shuttle to come pick me up. Amanda could have done it but we didn't know how easy it was to pick someone up at the airport there. Sometimes its kinda screwy and you can't just sit in your car and wait for someone. I met Amanda at the hotel and we got ready to go to the concert. We ate at Pita Pit, I don't have one in Iowa. I was fascinated to say the least lol. We found the theater before we ate so we walked around for a little bit and took pictures in front of the sign. We looked like total goofballs but we were so excited!

The concert was so amazing! We were in the same building as Idina Menzel. What could be better than that?

Meeting Idina at the stage door and getting her autograph! That's what!


We waited in the cold for what seemed like forever! She finally came out and Amanda freaked out. I got my program signed and Idina went to the other side before she could sign Amanda's. She stood there saying she would cry if she didn't get an autograph. I was a little embarrassed. But I totally get her obsession so I really couldn't say anything. I would have been her if this happened 2 years ago.
We arrived back at the hotel around 11. We took pics of us together to document that we finally met after being friends for about a year.
I am well aware that we look bright eyed and absolutely stunning in this picture lol. Amanda had planned on staying but she decided that it would be better for her to drive home instead of sleeping for a few hours. She knows how her body works so I reluctantly let her go. I had the king size bed all to myself and I wish I had a picture of little tiny me in this huge bed. I bet it looked hilarious!

More blog posts will come tomorrow. I don't want to overwhelm you guys.

I really do feel like an idiot now

My car broke down today so I'm stuck at home until it's fixed. I guess I'll use this time to update my blog! Yay!

Okay so Amanda and I talked about dating awhile ago which prompted me to write the "I feel like an idiot" entry. Now, I really do feel like an idiot but for a whole different reason.
I was well aware that Amanda and I dating wasn't going to be a reality any time soon after we talked about it because we hadn't met in person. I was under the impression that there was still a possibility. Then we made plans to meet at the Idina Menzel concert a few week ago. In my mind this changed the game. We were meeting in person. A couple weeks before the concert Amanda told me that the girl she had been previously seeing asked her to be her girlfriend. I asked about Kristin and Amanda told me that they were just friends so why would she bring up the idea of us dating if she had feelings for this girl? I was shocked and hurt. I told Amanda that I was hurt because I thought that us meeting in person changed the game. She told me that she was clear with me that it wasn't going to work out distance-wise and otherwise. She does live 8 hours away from me but I have no idea what she means by otherwise. Here's where I get upset. She explained that "it wasn't going to happen any time soon". That does not mean the same thing as "it's not going to work out". She wasn't clear with me because she didn't say what she meant.
I don't understand how she didn't know that I had developed feelings for her. I told her that I was interested in dating and I was willing to work out the distance thing if she was. We talked every day, all day. I just don't understand why she would even bring it up if she knew it wasn't going to work.
You can't fake what we have. We understand each other in ways that even our very best friends don't. We just click. Other than a miscommunication, we just get each other and we always know what the other is thinking or feeling even through texts. I know her text language so well that I know what her mood is, whether she is stressed, excited, tired, etc.
Taylor Swift's "You Belong With Me" is constantly running through my head. 95% of those lyrics describe our relationship. At least they do to me.
Amanda broke up with the other girl about a week ago. I asked her why and she said she just wasn't feeling it. I knew she hadn't been feeling it since Kristin asked her out because she wasn't sure the night she told me. You're either feeling it or you aren't. She wasn't. It's been kinda hard to talk to her since the break up. She feels really bad about it and it doesn't help that Kristin is being immature. I know it's hard but she needs to get over it. When Amanda was seeing Kristin I put away the idea of us dating. It wasn't going to happen and it still probably isn't so I let it go. I am still hurt but I don't let it get in the way of our friendship. I know that hurt will go away. I made her promise me that this wouldn't hurt our friendship and so far it hasn't. Sometimes when she was talking about how Kristin wasn't supporting her interests, I just wanted to say "Maybe you should have chosen your girlfriend a little more carefully" but I held my tongue because saying that wouldn't do me any good.